Well, its showdown time…and tomorrow morning I will be in St.Joseph’s hospital for my surgery. Getting a lumpectomy of the lymph nodes and hope and pray they find the tumor. I will be in there overnight and go home on Thursday sometime. I have my army of friends that are coming in shifts to get me there, be there when I wake up, stay overnight and then pick me up and take me home. I am a lucky woman to have so many friends…they are my homemade family!
I had a talk with Mr.Cancer and he is getting evicted out of my body tomorrow morning. I’m sick to death of him…not invited and not a guest that is welcomed at all. I know this may sound corny but this is the only way I can deal with this.
After my tumor has gone to the lab, my c will be staged and then we, me and Dr.W. will know what to do next. I am his weirdest patient and that makes me smile. He is a smiley too, smiling eyes…wait till you meet him. And if you haven’t read the last post you won’t know what I’m talking about right now.
I have to pack my overnight, make my bed and take an antiseptic shower tonight and again tomorrow morning…they want this girls body CLEAN…and that makes me happy, no staph infection for me….cause that scares the shit out of me. I had to deal with my husband getting a staph not once but twice…it ain’t pretty. And it can kill you just as fast as the other stuff….so please keep it clean.
I’m jabbering now cause I’m a little nervous…when I stop typing this makes it closer to tomorrow….I had rather stick a rusty nail in my eye than have cancer…..fuck it I said it…
Pray, meditate, send me light and love or whatever you can do to make this good for me. I will check back with you when I am feeling up to chatting and if anyone wants to come see me…you know I love company……Good Night my Lovelies………Sam